Key to this event was the research I was doing for
my book entitled Natural
Solutions, Women's Health Conditions. That
information provided a resource for the various
physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual dilemmas of
being female. Additionally, it is my belief that
hormone fluctuations were and are a big part of my
state of health and mind, and throughout the years, my
hormones have created a very exciting life for me, to
say the least.
The barometer of my thoughts, feelings, beliefs,
and experiences, is my body, and it is essential to
pay attention to it. My first period was at age
eleven, and I immediately developed fibrocystic
breasts and cramps, and then later, moodiness, weight
gain, etc. Doctors, over the years, prescribed various
pharmaceutical drugs and birth control pills, to help,
but they didn't. Even at that time, I was stubborn
enough to try alternatives, everything from vitamins,
herbs, dietary changes, yoga, and more. For example, I
discovered that caffeine aggravated my fibrocystic
breast condition and stopped that right away.
One morning two years ago, I awoke with a
very large, angry tumor on the inside of my right
breast. No kidding! It happened that fast. All the
study and research for my book provided me with
information but yet, I was still scared. Literally
scared to death! The tumor was large and extremely
painful and, no doubt, a more dramatic manifestation
of the fibrocystic breast condition I had all my life.
Interestingly, at the time, I did not have any medical
insurance and was steeped in wholistic and spiritual
approaches. Yet, not only was I "steeped" in them, I
believed in them!
My sweet doctor's educated and experienced opinion
was that it was breast cancer. To be honest, I wasn't
so sure, yet I agreed to a sonogram. The sonogram
exposed it as a solid tumor, at which point my doctor
suggested I see his oncologist. He had breast cancer
ten years earlier and was giving me his best advice,
along with his fear. However, I decided on a different
course of action; one without the fear! I went to a
Naturopath, who talked with me for a couple hours. He
helped dispel my fears and together we decided on a
path of homeopathics. This restored my
self-confidence.
My alternative approach was not blessed by my
doctor or other medical professionals or even personal
friends. Unfortunately, their fears prevented them
from offering me the emotional support I needed at
that moment. I made a decision they probably would not
make for themselves, and I understood that. Yet I
wanted and needed emotional support. The only one that
came through was my Angel Mother. She trusted
everything I decided for myself (even though it was
probably not the choice she would make for herself),
and for that, I am forever grateful to her.
There was a moment when I did not know whether I
had cancer or not, or whether would live or die. This
is an indescribable personal confrontation with life
and death, and I was ushered to the edge of my fear,
anger, doubts, and beliefs. At that point, I had a
very loud, vocal, angry exchange with my Maker in the
shower. I cried and yelled and sobbed and screamed,
"Why me, God?" No answer came, and I felt empty. Shortly, I realized the better question is
"What is this about for me?" I looked inside and
realized that I was over-nurturing to others and not
nurturing enough to myself. This was very much an
emotional tumor, and then I knew I had a choice about
how to proceed. In moments, an inexplicable feeling of
calm and acceptance came over me, and I eventually
surrendered to love and my God.
My tumor was emotionally related, and there's
always an emotional connection, yet there are also
dietary and environmental connections as well. What
did I do? I meditated, took natural herbs and
homeopathics, and most importantly used visualization techniques three times a day! I made
a choice, believed in it, and followed through! This
is crucial.
The most difficult aspect of all this was to go
against traditional practices, my doctor, mass
consciousness, and educated advice. To do so shakes
your foundation. Making the internal decision was the
key. Faith (though shaken) and intuition (connection
to Spirit) guided my actions. My tumor was gone in
less than two months! I am healed. My doctor said I
was "lucky," though I know the truth is that I was
proactive in my own healing and decision-making. I
completely believed in my choices and trusted
Spirit.
NOTE: My book offers a practical resource
for information, alternatives, and natural
solutions to various women's conditions. My best
advice is to listen to your body, trust your
intuition, and believe in your choice. Choice is
very powerful. Beliefs are even more powerful! |
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